madamerex

Makes me feel crap that ive felt this way for over a year
Yet im really not skinny

heyy
hope u are all ok and stayin strong,
my mum made me eat today, i feel so fat ugly and week but i spose i gota get threw next weeks weighing at the clinic and the hopefully get discharged, then i can go bak on the straight and narrow, woohey
love to u all xxxx

it sounds like everyone has been having a bad day, me included so everyone get up and do 8 min abs! lol

http://youtube.com/results?search_query=8+min+abs&search_type=

then the people who have exams, go on www.samlearning.com

i went to water arobic the other day. it was funny, there was also this extreemly skinny girl walking by the pool. im pretty sure she was ana. it was ultimate thinspo
love you all.

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ahhhh! im supposed to be on a semi-fast and i have to go to a birthday party tonight...what the heck am i supposed to do...it feels also like theyre going to be watching what i eat...

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I have the feeling I'm asexual...
and I dont know how to deal with it in this overly sex-focused world...
I rly don't know what to do...

I've had sex twice. It was alright... I mean, of course it was a lil exciting, but also sooo gross and nasty. Ever since the first time that I had sex (2 years ago), I've been thinking of sex as a dirty thing to do. And whenever I hear that someone had sex, I see them as a wild animal who does something rly nasty and disgusting...

I don't have a problem with not having sex. I'm happy with myself like this. But it causes trouble with my relationships to guys. I get freaked out really easily, because it seems like they all just want one thing anyway. I don't get close to any guys, because I'm scared of them wanting to have sex.

The only thing I'm longing for is to be with someone who loves and appreciates me for who I am. I want to have a loving and fun relationship, I want to hook up, I want to be able to touch a guy's chest and other body parts. I want passion.

But I do not want sex.

Girls, I'm sorry to bother you with this, but I can't talk about this to anybody else. And this issue about asexuality has been running through my mind for the past months and years now... First I thought I was just weird and I would develop a desire for sex or something like that... but then i read about the fact that there actually is something like "asexuality"... and now I'm even more scared and feel like a freak. I'll never have another boyfriend or get married. Not only because I dont want sex, but also because I dont let any guys get close to me.

:'( Help? Words of wisdom or advice? :'(
xoxoxo

For a website.
Just thought id share =]

Starvation,
    Starvation,
       Starvation.

No pain?
   -  Then no perfection.

When I know,
     [theres nothing left to take away]
I'll smile,
       at my reflection..

=] x

thoughts on ADIOS? does it work? xx

anyone take it? is it dangerous?
any other diet pills that people used and liked?

Cranberry is suppost to be good for weight loss...( i dont eat them ) but ive got the soft gel pill form...and im putting it to the test..its really helping =]

So mom agreed to star me on a diet!!! I ate 500 cals of beef yesterday and lost like5 lbs!!! I'm taking some kinda pills and hardly wanting to eat! I love this thing! I put my goal weight with them at like 130 and once I get off their program I will totally make my way down to 111 using the skills they've taught me! Yay!
Loviess!

or maybe just some kind words...

feeling extremely suicidal right now...

Heyy,
I can rearely get on here.
If any of you fancy a chat, add me on msn
beforeyouknow__x@hotmail.co.uk
Itd be nice, cause obvi i cannot discuss certain things with my friends hah
xxx

Just out of curiousity...
How many guys are on this site?

I just think its so rare for a guy to have an eating disorder, or am I wrong..?

My French teacher who's fabulous is fabulously thin. Seriously. She gets thinner by the week. Today during my lesson she leaned back in her seat and I cud see her ribs - not to mention she was wearing a black. She was standing and leaning back while standing up and I cud see her hip bones. I'm ridiculously jealous. In the beggining of the
year she looked fine. But she started to diet and excersise more bc of
her wedding. And now she's my deal...I mean...she
must have an
eating disorder bc like...most people who
wanna get thin who don't have
eating
disorders want to get
toned...I
suppose.
idk. I wanna look like her...
God.
She has lost waaaaay too much weight.
its not fair.

i probs sound  really stupid but everyone is talking about abc diet, what exactly is it? x x x x

hungry, and the porkchops my mother made downstairs are not helping. 

i'm trying not to eat any of it because i'm fasting today. i might have a quarter of one.

any words to try to get me not to?
and do you guys ever get headaches when you're fasting? hurtsss

Well,, im going to my doctor in a few days...and im getting back on Adderall,, and currently im so depressed by not seeing my husband cause hes at work...its taking me all ive got not to go out shopping and overdrafting my bank account to binge/purge.